Let the past stay the past!

Today is the holy day for all Muslim. First, let me say Happy Eid Mubarak 1435 H for all Muslim in the world :-)

Today we should be celebrating with happiness. However earlier today, there was something that a bit annoy me. Really,, it was really bothered me for awhile! I got message from someone that I never ever expect in my whole life. She sent me an apology text message. Btw, I appreciated what you have done. But better you don’t have to do it! I already forgave everything and forgot about those things! So better we don’t need to have any connection anymore. Sorry to say this. Hope you all understand.

Now, my life is much better without you guys. What happened in the past should stay in the past! If you,, yes YOU, or anyone that related to those things that really made big wound in my life start to send me a message again, even its a good message for ask an apologize or anything, it won’t work! It will only open that wound again! I already closed everything! I already forget everything and threw it far far away from my beautiful life! It doesn’t worth if something like that stay in my life. So just keep it to your self, and remove me from your life as well! I’ve fully moved on and I pretty much happier now. So, don’t ever ever come and take my happiness again! Let the past stay the past! Ok? Thanks..

-elsyaFhani-

Random Conversations

*On winter, 9 degrees celsius, rainy and windy day in Melbourne*

I’m a bit angry with him, because he was came late and took so long to fetch me, and I’m super cold and freezing waiting outside for around 15 minutes until he finally came.

*in his car with heater on*
Me: (Angry and doesn’t want to talk to him)
Him: Baby, can you see me?? *giggling*
Me: *silent and a cry a little because I feel very cold and angry*
Him: Are you crying?? Baby, please look at me..
Me: Nooo.. Leave me alone first.. *still angry*
Him: *chuckle chuckle chuckle*
Me: Don’t teased meee..!!! *crying and smiling together*
Him: hahaha.. Don’t cry baby, you should become a tough girl. I know you are..
Me: *Silent*
Him: Baby, look at me..
Me: What? *still angry but couldn’t not to smile* haha
Him: See my eyes,, what you can see in my eyes??? *serious*
Me: Hhmmm.. *trying to analyses*
Hhmmm.. Nothing!
Him: Really?? Cant you see your self in my eyes?? *still serious*
Me: HAHAHAHHAHA *couldn’t help to laugh* LoL

And we both laugh together.. Hahahaha..

I know its super cheesy.. But thats his simple way to make me smile again whenever I’m angry with him.. Hahaa Thanks hun.. <3

-this picture was taken after the conversation above- haha

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-Love-
elsyaFhani

Rainbow after the rain!

There is a proverb said that “There is always rainbow after the rain” and also there is another one said “There is always light after the dark”. I really believe those words. I believe, Allah have a brilliant plan than I thought. Allah is a good Director. I really feel blessed for what I have now. A lot of good news came at the same time. Together with something that has been gone, but yeah,, I got the better one. Love, life, job. Everything is unpredictable. I never thought about this kind of things before. I never had imagined will gonna have job in such a good place.

Earlier this month, I got an email from the company that I have applied long long time ago. They ask for Writing Test. The writing test has conducted the day after I received the email. Only a day after that, I got the respond from them that my writing test has passed, and they gonna proceed for interview. There are 2 interviews, both were through Skype. The first interview I did in my home, and the second interview was done when I was in Melbourne. The Company name is DGiT International Pte Ltd. The main office is located in Melbourne, and they have a branch here in Indonesia, which is in Bali. Thats pretty cool isn’t it? I never had imagined will gonna work in Paradise Island. :-P

Yesterday, Alhamdulillah I received an email from them said “There is a good news from our office in Melbourne. We would be glad to have you joining the company at our Bali office”. I’m so excited. SUPER EXCITED. Is it real? Is it true? Ya Allah, many thanks for all of this that you gave me to me. Is it coincidence or something? For sure, I really forgot when I apply to this company. I never imagined that I got the news after my contract with current company has been ended. And I dont know why the main office is in Melbourne. :-P What kind of fate is this? :-P Suddenly all good news came before and after I went for my Australia trip. Why I choose Australia in the first place? Hahhaa… Allah know better than me. These are the best birthday gift ever!!

However, I’m not forget as well. There are people that might be sad about this news. Which is my family especially my parents. I know they are also happy to hear the good news, but they are also sad because I need to leave again. Living far for them again. Only 1 year I’ve stayed with them, now I need to leave again. But, this is for them as well. Maybe there is someone that think that I’m selfish, I only thinking about my happiness. That’s not true. Better not to judge other people if you didn’t know anything! :-)

Lets start a new life with new love, new environment, new job but never forget all the people that always beside you in every situation, and forget all the people that ever hurt you. Thanks to all people that ever hurt me, because of them, I have more courage to be a better person!! :-) Allah know the best!

I feel blessed! I couldnt ask for more! Many thanks for all support. Family, best friends, friends, and all kind people that always support me. I love you so muuucccchhh!!!

 

Love -elsyaFhani- <3

Its a New Journey, Perhaps?

I’m back.. :D

Yeah,, I just came back from my Australia trip. It was a great and amazing trip ever! I really have fun and a lot of good memories when I was in Australia, especially in Melbourne. Now, I will not writing about how was my trip, but I will tell a story about someone that really make me feel love again. Maybe ‘Love’ is very generous word. But yeah, thats the best word to describe how I feel right now. Lets start.. :-D

-Don’t judge a book by its cover-

I will post his photo’s for the first time in this blog. Maybe a lot of from you will have a comment like : Why him? Don’t you think he is old for you? and anything else that related to age. Whats wrong with age? It doesn’t matter for me. That really matter for me is he love me, he really respect me, and he respect my family as well. So, whatever other people talk about him or about us, really, it doesn’t work at all. :-)

So, let me introduce him. His name is Recep Kirkil, but people called him Danny, and I called him Baby (hahaha :p). He is Australian but  Turkish descent. He stayed in Melbourne, have own business, and  he is a web designer. Age? Ofcourse older than me, but its just a number. :-) and the important thing, he is a Muslim. We know each other about a month ago. He started talked to me through Skype, chatting through Viber, video call through Facetime. Everyday! We did it everyday. I don’t know if its coincidence or something. But its just happen a month before my trip to Melbourne and Sydney began.

First time I saw him through video call, I’m a bit scared. No, its not because how he looks, but I’m scared how if I start to like him and love him? How if I expecting too much and will disappoint later? Am I ready to start all this things? If I start to open my heart again, means I need to be ready to have wound again. But as far as I knew him, before or after we met, he is a good guy. Its like I’ve found something that I really want. I like him just the way he is.

He is very kind, very mature, he is a good listener and also a good adviser. He really respect me, and I respect him either. When we talk, he always focused on me. He’s not really a person that crazy about gadget. He never playing his phone while we have a conversation. That’s what I love about him. We knew each other about a month before finally we met in Melbourne. On my first day I came to Melbourne, he came to Airport to pick me up, and bring me to sightseeing around the city. He hold my hand when we cross the street, and wherever we walked, he always hold my hand. It just make me feel really comfortable and safe. he took care for all the details, like he have prepared a Turkish bread for my breakfast (I’m not fasting on that day :p), he took care until I got simcard and internet connection, so I can called my family. (Eventhough he allowed me to use his phone to call my mom.) :p . We went to Victoria Market, he bought me a puffy jacket. That’s really sweet. He really didn’t allowed me to pay anything if I’m with him. He is super kind. After that we went to Eureka Tower and Royal Exhibition Building.

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I have an appointment dinner with friend on that day, so he gave me a permission to have a dinner with my friend, and he will pick me up once finish. I’ve finished dinner with my friend around 8PM. He already awaits me outside. And we just went to nearest coffee shop, and talking about anything until night. Its only the first day I’m with him, but I already fell in love. I feel comfortable around him. He really spoiled me. I love it!

Thanks baby

 

There was one night we went to the empty beach, its St. Kilda Beach (I knew its winter and very windy that night :-p).  But Its really romantic for me. We walked in the beach with very cold sand, holding hands, and talking about whats the future plan. Is sweet isnt it? :-P And also there was a moment when we met some a stranger that he help in the street. That guy ask him, if we are married couple? And you know what his answer? He hold my wrist and told the guy that we are engaged and will gonna married soon this year. I’m a bit shock and happy to hear his answer. Its not because he said that we will gonna married this year, but its because how proud he is to introduce me as a fiance to some a stranger. And still a lot of things that really make me happy when I was with him. He always teased me whenever I got angry or not in the good mood, until I can laugh again. :-D I love him even more.

Love

Love

 

Thanks for everything baby!! Hope Allah give us permission to love each other until Jannah :). I love you!

“Don’t ever empty the bucket of mystery. Never let people define what you do. It’s not about zigging when you should zag. It’s not about doing something unprecedented and unpredictable. It’s just about never being a word, or something that is not in the process of transformation. – Marilyn Manson”

-elsyaFhani-

 

When Something Called ‘Love’ come again!

Lately I really feel alive again. Is it too fast or maybe its normal? But yeah, thats life.. We need to move on. We cant stuck living in the past. Past is past someone said. So here we go the story….
The other day, I’ve talked to my mom. ‘Mom, how if I don’t want to have ‘relationship’ anymore?’ Because I feel really enjoy with my single life after the divorce. I don’t have any responsibility anymore for someone else life. I only think what is best for me and my family. Nothing else! I have a lot of friends and ofcourse my bestfriend that always be there for me. I can have a lot of time to spending with them. I feel like my life is better now and I can traveling as much as I can. Its perfect isn’t it? But my mom only said “Please do not ever have thoughts like that, you are still young, now just enjoy your life first, I believe something better will come after this. Just pray, pray and ofcourse ikhtiar. Be patient!” :) Herrmm.. I know my mom and family really worried about me. They worry I will have a trauma and doesn’t want to build a commitment in relationship anymore. I’m happy they can pretend like nothing happen in front of me! Thats become my spirit!
But from time to time, I thinking, maybe will be better to have someone that give you love, simply attention and can talk everything you want to tell them. Maybe I need to start again now, I need to open my heart again for someone. Until I met this guy. I’ve met this guy from somewhere. We only knew less that a month. But I really feel comfortable with him. But still, I don’t have any confidence because of my current status as divorced woman. I’ve told him that I’m single now, but I have married before. And I ask “It does matter for you?” And I really like his answer. I think its kind of open minded person. He said “It doesn’t matter. I don’t care about your past. That is your past. Past is past. Why we need to care about that? I only want your present and future” *melted* Heheehe…
He’s mature, kind, respect me and my family. I’ve introduced him to my family. So he is the first guy that I bring to myfamily. And Alhamdulillah all my family is happy to hear that. They really support me. When I introduce him to my mom, he’s very polite. I really love it. Eventhough we only knew for less than a month, but I feel know him for a long long time ago. We are always communicate everyday. Facetime, video call through Skype and also phone call through Viber. Btw, he stay in Melbourne. Thats why. :-D
I really feel energized now. From I open my eyes, until I close my eyes. From morning till night.. I never have a feeling like this for the time being. But now, I’m really happy to have you. :-)
I hope everything is gonna be alright and running smoothly.. I just go with the flow.. No need to rush.. Just enjoying my lovey dovey day with him.. :-)

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Thoughts become feelings, feelings become love and love comes from the heart -Wazim Shaw-

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